Your Safe Space to Just Vent

I don’t agree with others, I don’t listen to people either, that also includes when people tell me things to my face and behind my back. They never say the truth about me, other people believe what other people say about me, I hate it, but I get it, that’s how people are, it happens, I don’t agree with it, I also don’t agree that I am blaming others, people tried to accuse me of it. I told myself that’s just what they see, I went on to tell myself , it’s their perspective, it’s their point of view, it’s their perception, you know, yada, yada yada, but it’s also not the truth. I just wanted to vent about this because I am sick of people acting like what they say, their perception, and etc is the truth when it isn’t, they say it like it’s a fact, it’s not ok. I don’t get close to people, I don’t let people in, so therefore they are incorrect. I don’t know why they say this stuff but I know it’s not about me at all. It’s also a good time to mention the word projection, this is exactly what they are doing; projecting. You can’t define me, you define yourself, you define yourself by: how you treat me, by what you say, and how you say it. I am ranting but I am glad I am. The whole point of my rant is to help ground myself and heal. I feel better. Don’t get me wrong, I know what I said before, I said “ I don’t listen to others”, well I meant to say I listen to others, when it suits me. I even tried to give them a chance few times, but unfortunately, they were too toxic, instead of constructive feedback/criticism, they spewed hate left and right, they just tear me down to bring themselves up. I don’t need that crap in my life. I did what anyone would do, I cut ties. When I say I cut ties, I really meant it. Ok, now, I just let in nothing but positivity, oh well, I let in as much positivity as I can, I am doing the best I can, of course, nothing is perfect, they say healing is non-linear. But anyways, I’ll give one example of toxic behavior: I cut ties with this person named Hannah, we never met but I watched her videos, said “we are all connected”. I disagree with that because people treat me like crap. It happens a lot, I don’t think I do, I think I reacted to what happened to me, I am rambling on, I can’t be connected to people, it’s not possible, there’s only me, myself and I. That’s it. Nothing more. I am going to live with myself and die alone with myself. It doesn’t affect others. Also, nobody cares.

This lady was horrible to me at the library in a small town where I live, it happened a while ago, i had a flashback about it, today. I want to talk about it in length. Here it goes: I wanted to check out a book, but this lady wouldn’t leave me be, she just acted like she was deliberately trying to upset or provoke me. For example, she approached me and started giving me a hard time about the way I scanned the book. However, I never asked for help, she just chewed me out, it happened out of nowhere, it made me sad, which she would enjoy hearing, but she isn’t here, this also takes me back to when a shaman laughed at idea of me being sad. But the truth was she guessing how I felt. I never stated I was sad. It showed me she never cared about me. Her interest was power and control. People are cruel and enjoy hurting me or making me sad a lot actually, I don’t know why, but it seems like they really get a kick out of it. I know I don’t know her intentions but I am talking about my perspective here, I saw this with my own eyes, this lady was cruel to me at the library, this shaman was cruel to me in the past, it seemed like it was done on purpose, when it happened by both people. I understand the world is a cruel fucked up place, it really shows but this was in the realm of harassment, you say that’s the way the world works, you say that’s life, but I will try to murder you because I don’t care about you, I only care about me, I am not telling anyone my sob story, I am venting, so you get over it. This vent is for me, I need to release the trauma I experienced. Long story short, I returned the book and filed a complaint, I can only speculate the reasons behind this persons behavior but I don’t know, I thought it was about the way I dressed, if it was, I don’t understand why I was harassed, I dress for me, not anyone else. It’s weird to go after someone if they dress a certain way because of sensory issues and or sensory needs, but she did, I have adhd, I buy clothes that I like and this lady was attacking me and harrassing me for clothes i like, it’s weird, it’s power and control again, I didn’t think to call the police, but it felt like it got that bad, I think filing a complaint was enough, these people were gone after some time and they hired new people. Still, people are rude at this library and I stopped going. I was never the cause obviously, in the end I still feel sad for myself and I felt bad because this lady was attacking me.

Fuck Trump again and again.

what does it mean if i want to tell someone about every terrible thing that's happened to me? why do i want to do that? why am i so fucking desperate for another person to hear what they did to me? god, nobody in the entire world knows what the fuck happened in this house. it was like a horror movie. and everything is all "normal" now but it can't ever really be normal again because every morning i walk past the spot where my dad shoved me to the ground, and i live inside the same four walls i lost my mind in back then. i still have the laptop my mom punched me over.

remembering that time my dad shoved me to the ground because my mom convinced herself she was scared of me. when she lied to make me look dangerous. i was never fucking dangerous or violent like she said. she was LYING. why did everyone believe her? why did she do that in the first place?

My wife beats me and treats me as a manservant. Mother-in-law is misandrist.😭

ouuhhh the pit in my stomach when i remember what they said to me... kill me NOW

I’m a mix of emotions. One gc where I felt like I was playing therapist apparently he has friends and mentioned he’s been gaming with them. Then after venting to me in general he had a normal convo with someone. Idk part of me thinks maybe he felt comfy to vent. I’m like ik I should be there for a friend even tho it’s weird calling them a friend. Then one day I talked in chat and got ignored so oof :/ maybe busy but it was morning for them. Then another gc I got the vibe of this guy losing interest. He said he was lonely and sad and i said we could be friends. But eventually he kinda stopped talking later after realizing I was a boy like he asked if I was a boy to girl. Kind gooner convo about his work. Like why does gender matter? I’m a guy but I don’t really care about gender for friends I’m not trying to date. But honestly if you’re a guy looking to edate I’d rather know upfront if you’re looking for girls so I don’t waste my time bc it’s happened before. I feel so lonely. Then at work I overheard a co worrier ranting and it sounded similar. Like I guess stuff some mystery woman said to her..? But I kind of agree because she’s… weird… like mean girl weird. Then I got this vibe of… does this other person know I’m sad? Or going through shit? Or do they assume all quiet shy ppl are sad idk. Or they know what the job is like probably. It’s so depressing being socially awkward not good at communicating, I even struggle online. I just want a friend. Someone around my age. No TRASH either. I’m ngl they lowkey cooked with the trash dni. (From what I assume it’s transphobes, racists, ableist, sexists, and homophobes ) and yet everyone can do stuff so easily. I feel like I’m some glitch or something, I’ve just turned out weird.. many ways. I wish I could fix it

I never use tampons and it hurt as hell when i try to finger myself. Is it bcs I never use tampons? So I never got used to feeling of being shoved up inside?? I follow many tutorials, tried to prepped myself, already feeling super horned up, and I STILL can't do it, it hurt as hell omfg. God I'm so fucking frustrated! I live in a third world country, Tampons isn't a thing here, and if it does exist, ppl will shame you for using something that goes up inside you, heresy I guess. don't blame me for being a chud pls :(

One thing that I cannot stand is for people to insult my intelligence. You know damn well you didn't want to call and see how your grandsons are doing dummy. You were just wanted some money because you're a dope head. I wouldn't give a damn of me or your grandsons never see you again......you're pathetic

my first instinct when i heard my friend having a new kid when their family is struggling financially: ew

i think a lot of people need to realize you don’t need to put down women if you’re arguing against misandry. same goes for putting down men to show you condemn misogyny. like you do know you can advocate for both genders in the same breath. you can defend one, without shit talking the other. otherwise you can’t really claim you’re fighting for gender equality. it’s important to me that you know this

The Viets who voted for Trump deserve to be hate crimed. Hell, the fact that we're fine with these slant-eyed parasites whose illegitimate state couldn't have existed without the CIA is mind-boggling.

Bruh my family tarted as fuck idgaf about your “generational trauma” unless you wanna relive that trauma then by all means,

I have officially been left by who I thought was the love of my life and my forever person but I guess I was just too insufferable for them I'm really just not sure what to do with myself I'm feeling very alone someone please tell me I'm not completely unlovable

Not gonna lie, why does it feel like most women online (kind of) are sexist towards men? I'm a lady myself, I hate sexism regardless of gender.

the world would be better off if we castrated all men though

my brother can’t take the time to do basic household chores but he can gosh darn SURE play roblox and call children slurs over voice chat all afternoon till dawn!!! duality of man

I am so freaking insecure and I absolutely hate that about myself. I get so jealous whenever my husband is around other girls at work especially girls I know and used to work with. It’s so incredibly toxic of me to get upset about it. We met at work years ago and it’s just the thought of well you flirted with me and here we are… What if you meet someone you like better? Someone prettier, funnier, idk. I fully acknowledge it’s my insecurities talking and I wish I could just turn it off. It’s just for the first time in my life I’m happy where I am and I’m so scared to lose it all. I never want to lose him

https : //www . reddit . com/r/hatethissmug/comments/1wqscgi/i_hate_the_glorification_of_violence_against/?chainedPosts=t3_1x152tk%2Ct3_1xj1miw this humanization of psychopaths I've been seeing on the rise lately worries me. this mentality that all people can be rehabilitated no matter the crimes, that such people aren't truly evil but just misunderstood, it's apparently more nooanced than that. the fact is evil people absolutely do exist. if you inflict harm on others and KNOW you're inflicting harm on others and take gratification in that and have no remorse and aren't making an effort yourself to improve but instead need the justice system to mandate rehabilitation for you, only for you to not actually improve but just hide your true self better until you strike again, then I can't think of a better word than "evil" to describe you. and sadly it's way too many people. anybody who unironically believes this nonsense is probably the same kind of person who would guilt abuse victims into sympathizing with their perpetrators. and they're usually the first to claim they aren't justifying, just explaining. yes, you're explaining but why? what's the point in knowing the context behind someone's actions unless you're the psychologist trying to fix them, which 99.9% of the crowd you're preaching to likely isn't? why would you bother telling us someone's sob backstory if for any other reason to soften our attitudes towards them, which could easily be described as a form of justifying to a little degree? I think it's also telling that evil people always seem to benefit from this kind of excusemaking. they immediately latch onto anything that tries to lift the burden of responsibility. they'll continue reciting this rhetoric about how they aren't truly evil, how they're just lost, how everyone's equally complex. they'll keep deflecting and others will keep following them until next thing you know, everyone's outright defending them.