Um, don't know what symptoms you looked up, but that doesn't happen in about 90% of all cases! My boyfriend used to have BPD (still sort of does but he's "recovering") so I did a lot of research on it.
He changes his mind about everything a lot. People, bands, relationships, anything really. Sometimes he hates all his friends and pushes them away with anger and cruelty. The next day he's back to wishing that all his friends liked him more. I'd say "I thought you hated having friends and didn't want any." He'd reply "I did, but that's different now. I wish they liked me, it's as if nobody likes me." Rinse and repeat.
There are of course other symptoms than just changing your mind a lot, so these might not apply to you. Black and white thinking, extreme fear of abandonment/losing people, fits of anger and more.
Even if you don't have BPD, I'm sure you'll find a way to sort out your emotions if you want to. (: Perhaps just simple counselling/therapy could help. That's the only non-medicine-oriented treatment that's offered for BPD anyway, I'm afraid.
Hope all goes well for you!
Google BPD diagnostic, the top link is the official diagnostics list, just try to see if you have these symptoms from an objective point of view. Best of luck.
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