Just Vent | Just Venting

Can anyone help a young black man trying his hardest.I am a young black man and i do not believe in circumstances but I kind of do.Can other people ruin other peoples lives by sabotage?I have been looking for jobs for 12 months straight now i work for a company but i will not give the name.I am the only black guy at my job.I find myself not getting as many hours as every other person who works there.I work probably 1 day out of a month.And when i am on a job search I go dressed to impress the employer whom i want to work for.My resume is a pretty good resume.But most of the time I get the same answer:SORRY BUT WE AREN'T HIRING RIGHT NOW.When I am on a interview i speak very articulate and proper,looking at the interviewer in the eye giving them perfect eye contact.I do not stutter or stammer over my words.So what is the real problem.I don't get into race to much and i'm not racist,But is it the color of my skin or my age that is bothering employers? I'm 21 by the way.I try so hard not giving up especially when in the environment i live in is what we call the PROJECTS:(project housing)but anyway there are so many other things i could be doing to make money out here.Hell I wouldn't even have to leave the house but I tell myself everyday no i'm better than that.I tell myself i don't have to sell drugs to get by.But do I? Know I really have no clue i'm stuck in a place with the lowest employment in the united states Lansing Michigan.I am just a black man trying to do right instead of wrong.I could be selling drugs instead of looking for a job but i don't because
I do not want to be another statistic.
It is so hard to choose.I see my friend riding around in Cadillac's Chevy's and all Kinds of coupe's pulling out giant stacks of money and they do nothing but party.I'm so sick of being broke looking for a job.Its starting to make me kind of hate living.I don't know what to do.
I thought about killing myself.I can't Take it anymore.A lot of us young black men do try but its just the ignorant ones who ruin it for us.I want to have giant stacks of money and jewelry I want to ride around in brand new cars and be able to date the most beautiful women like them.
Am i just too good of a person or am I just being a PUSSY.I don't know which way to go.Like I said am I too good of a person or am I just being a PUSSY.Please comment and let me know what the deal is.