Just Vent | Just Venting

I have tried to modify my mortgage 3 times now and everytime they refuse it.They say it's manageable.I am a single mom collecting unemployment and child support.I am looking for a job,I'll taking anything but still it won't be enough.Child support is either sometimes late or not the correct amount.I don't want to ask for handouts,I want to be able to support my son and pay my bills,on my own.Why can't they just lower my payments,just a little? Some people say tell me not to pay my mortgage,then my credit will suffer and I will get phone calls daily.I don't want to not pay.I have no credit cards,no money in the bank,can barely afford food.If I didn't have to be strong for my son I don't think I would be here any longer.The day to day struggle is too much and it's the worst feeling to have to tell your son that there is nothing for supper tonight.All I want is a job so I can take care of my son,pay my bills and still have enough to buy food.Is that too much to ask for?