I am in love with my band director.. Yep. I can say that on here. And it feels nice to get it off my chest. He will never love me back, because he can't. I have seem to have gotten myself into a bit of a mess... Out of all of the people, I fell for him.. My best friend, my educator, my role model. It had to be him. f***.
See, it's kind of hard to explain. The way I've built these walls around myself, shooting down the people that enter my territory. The way people feel sad because of something... I envy them. I really have no reason to be sad. I have the two bestest friends in the world, and they listen. But for some reason I just feel like they/no one understands. I rant to them, and they rant to me, but it's just... differen ... read more
I'm extremely depressed, and I have been over the past few months. I've started to isolate myself from friends and shut out everyone emotionally without realizing it. All of my friends have boyfriends and try to make me a 3rd wheel, which I hate more than anything. I'm so tired of being lonely, but nobody likes me. No guys ever like me the way I like them. On top of that, my mom and best friend's dad always joki ... read more
This year has been the craziest of my entire life. I went off to college and met some of the most amazing people! I met this one person in particular one random day in the cafeteria. He came straight up to me and asked me for my number saying how beautiful he thought I was. He also mentioned that our eyes kept meeting across the room and he just knew that meant we were supposed to meet. So immediately there was ... read more
I know I'm becoming too clingy and needy... I freak out inside (not at him) whenever he doesn't tell me when he goes to work or going to sleep. The sudden collapse in text conversation sends me into this spiral of "JESUS CHRIST, HE'S DEAD" and even logic and statistics can't help me. This is driving me insane, but how do I stop feeling so clingy and paranoid??
Well I really like this boy. It's kind of stupid because we've never talked but it's a crush that just won't go away!! I'm to scared to talk to him but sometimes we make eye contact and it seems like he notices me?? I'm so confused
Why do I settle for less? There is never time left over for me. I understand you have other areas of your life that need your attention,but even when we do spend time together, either you get pussed off, you are hurtful, or you fall asleep. I am sick and tired of getting the least amount of anything. Thank God for social media, my friends, the kids, the pets, They are what I need. Stop leaving me last!
I wish I would've had the balls to just ask her for her number or facebook. Why am I so scared of just asking. I honestly haven't felt that attracted to anyone in so long.. It was strange because as soon as I laid eyes on her I had this feeling I hadn't felt in so long.. Ugh I'm so disappointed with myself. I hope you come back to my work, damn it I'm an idiot.. Another lame Friday night because I couldn't f***i ... read more