Posted by: Anonymous on 03/16/10 @ 10:45:48am
I'm so in love with you, I really am,
And i'm glad you're my boyfriend
I want to kiss you so badly, I really do,
But I won't be able to. When I gte back home,
Ill be so scarred, So used, that every time you kiss me I'll think of the time he hit me. I'll think of the time I was raped, I'll think of all the bad things that happened to me. And trust me a lot has happened. I want to be with you so badly, my whole body wants it, you don't understand, but when you kiss my neck I brace myself because I was choked, every time you caress my cheek I will flinch because I was hit, every time you say I love you I will second guess because they all said that.
I'm wasting your time. I don't deserve you,
Please please, forget about me. It will hurt, a lot
but that pain is nothing compared to the pain I'll cause you.
Category: Love
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Holy crap. Somebody else has the same issue I do?
I too have trust issues because of the past...fortunately, I finally have been able to tell my man some of those issues (I still can't talk about all of them) so when I leave a cuddle session and he finds me curled up on the kitchen floor, he just kneels down with me (sometimes goes and gets me my favorite pop or ice cream) until I get better. I always tell him I don't deserve him, etc, etc, but you know what? He really hates it when I rip myself up like that, because he loves me. Be good to yourself, for his sake at least, if not for your own.
I wish people would just be good to each other. If no one took pain out on anyone else, there wouldn't be so much pain in the world. :(
I too have trust issues because of the past...fortunately, I finally have been able to tell my man some of those issues (I still can't talk about all of them) so when I leave a cuddle session and he finds me curled up on the kitchen floor, he just kneels down with me (sometimes goes and gets me my favorite pop or ice cream) until I get better. I always tell him I don't deserve him, etc, etc, but you know what? He really hates it when I rip myself up like that, because he loves me. Be good to yourself, for his sake at least, if not for your own.
I wish people would just be good to each other. If no one took pain out on anyone else, there wouldn't be so much pain in the world. :(
#1 Anonymous 06/25/10 @ 11:07:44pm Comment
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