Just Vent | Just Venting

I'm so in love with you, I really am,
And i'm glad you're my boyfriend
I want to kiss you so badly, I really do,
But I won't be able to. When I gte back home,
Ill be so scarred, So used, that every time you kiss me I'll think of the time he hit me. I'll think of the time I was raped, I'll think of all the bad things that happened to me. And trust me a lot has happened. I want to be with you so badly, my whole body wants it, you don't understand, but when you kiss my neck I brace myself because I was choked, every time you caress my cheek I will flinch because I was hit, every time you say I love you I will second guess because they all said that.

I'm wasting your time. I don't deserve you,
Please please, forget about me. It will hurt, a lot
but that pain is nothing compared to the pain I'll cause you.