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Try becoming more involved with school. Take part in after school activities like sports and clubs. It may seem stupid but it DOES work. Sitting at home and doing nothins is the worst possible thing you should do.

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Know that although something may seem logical, like the stories you tell yourself about hopelessness and unworthiness, it does not mean they are true. Something may seem to be true, but you know it doesn't feel right.

When you shift into a better feeling, those stories naturally disappear. They stop bothering you. They're no longer present in your focus. Because when you shift to a better feeling, you can only experience thoughts that are going to support that feeling.

Unworthiness is an illusion. It is not something you "solve". You cannot do anything 'more' in your life, to be or feel more worthy.

What happens is -- when you shift to a better feeling, now the idea of worthiness is no longer part of the equation. For example, when you're depressed, you might say "I can't do anything because I always feel bad. And I'm depressed because, in this moment, I'm inadequate in some way." But when you're on a better feeling, you just think "I'm not doing anything right now. It's boring. Well, what would I like to do? Meeting up with my friends, going to the movies, etc..." When you shift to a better feeling, you are no longer limited by this problem that is impossible to solve.

I've been where you are. As little as a month ago, lol. It's a really crappy place to be. And it becomes really intense.

Don't focus on the logic of hopelessness and unworthiness. There is no logical way to get out of that mindset. It's a mental trap.

Feel your way out of it. You know how to do it, because you've done it before. And if you don't know how, don't worry, the resources are being lined up for you, and you will find them soon.

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i know exactly how you feel. i have been suffereing from depression since the age of 12 im 17 now soon to turn 18. i havent told anyone when i was younger i knew there was something wrong i just had a feeling of emptiness in me. now that im older it has just gotten worse some days i cant even get out of bed im just always tired i can go to bed at 8pm and not get up until 4 pm the next day. i have just totally lost interest in everything i used to have somewhat decent grades but now im on the verge of not graduating highschool.im really good at hiding that i have a problem because im not the type of person to ask for help but its what i need the most. i just feel that one one will understand if i tell them. my parents arent undertsanding people and the relationship that me and my dad have isnt good at all. he tells me all the time that im worthless in his eyes and im a failure at life and i might as well drop out. so my parents just think im lazy and im just a pot head they dont even realize that im crying out for help. i smoke pot alot you could say cause when im high i just forget about everything and actually enjoy myself and im happy for once. last week i smoked during my lunch period cause we are aloud to leave school and i went back to math class and the kid sitting behind me was just laughing at me cause he knew i has high cause he smoked to and the next day he came up to me and ask what was wrong i said what are you talking about he said when your high your just so happy and when your not you wont even crack a smile you seemed depressed and i just changed the topic. so thursday i got my report card i have a 50 in english class and 70 is passing in my school and when my dad got ahold of my report card he had a fucking field day he screamed at me for hours just saying the most degrading things and i had also gotten a saturday detention for cutting to classes so my dad drove me yesterday morning to detention and said while your sitting there for 4 hours i want you to come up with a recovery plan meaning how im going to change my ways and get good grades and stuff like that so i ended writing a 5 page letter telling him my outlook on life and what is wrong with me and that i desperatly need help because each day is getting worse and worse and i think all the time how much easier it would be just to let this all go i dont want to deal with this anymore. but i feel like i really do need help but no one is going to be able to give me the help i need and i dont want to be put on pills. so im giving my dad the letter i wrote tomorrow cause i finally finished it up and im really really nervous. i just want to let you know your not alone but i dont know what else to tell your cause i dont even know what to tell myslef.

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wall of text... #3 crasssssh

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I was there too but I feel better. Remember to eat healthy, lots of water, exercise (at least walk)everyday. Keep pushing yourself out there and stay busy. It sounds cheesy but it is working for me. Don't ave much idol time

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