Just Vent | Just Venting

Although you hurt me more than I ever thought you could, although you lied to me over and over again and although you left me to go with that overweight, old cow I do still love you. Stupidly I still love you.
I've tried to be with other people but it doesn't feel the same as when I was with you. You really were my everything. I idolised you and thought we would always be together.
As you probably know I've been seeing someone else. He is a lovely person and he does make me feel like I'm worth something but I don't have very strong feelings for him. I don't love him and he doesn't make me as happy as you did. Half the time it is a chore to see him and spend time with him.
I'm sure one day I will get over all this.
I just want you to know that I think the chances of you and that stupid cow being together indefinitely are very slim as one day you will realise there is more to life than she can give you. You are 20 years old don't tie yourself down to that old woman for the rest of your life. Go out and have fun like I've been doing and find yourself properly.
I'll probably always love you but don't think you can just come back to me whenever you want because I'll never trust you again.

"You were my sweetest downfall. I loved you first."