Just Vent | Just Venting

fed up of playing games, but if i stop i just get walked all over, so lose lose situation. I'm too aware of how his mood changes depending on how distant i am, he wants me when i'm avoiding or ignoring him thats very screwed up, the minute i show any interest he doesn't care. I haven't had a real relationship since i was 17 everything after has just been complicated and messy, 3 years is too long to be messed with need something real, so i should finish whatever this is, but there is the problem, he wont let me, he just emotionally blackmails me till i let him back, makes empty promises and i except them, knowing that's just what they are, empty. I've said goodbye so many times, i can't even take myself seriously anymore.