Just Vent | Just Venting

Oh My Gosh... When I was a little girl, I'd of never thought that I would be depressed like I am now. Hmph...I feel as if I have no friends...I have no money...and even when I obtain a boyfriend I still don't feel wanted or needed. I really don't know what to do about my situation. I can't tell my mom or my sister...and my friends will think I've gone mad. All I do is cry in my free time. I mean running helps. I try to push myself to lose weight even though I weight 120lbs. People think I'm skinny when all I have is flab. I push myself to exercise until I can't breathe. I know that isn't good but it helps. I have marks on my legs and a huge forehead. My sister's beautiful and I cant help but to think what happened to me...I yearn for help but there's no one to understand my situation. I'm beginning to assume I'm EMO...animals are they only things that bring me joy...