I wish I could just hold you in my arms after we rewind about 3yrs when I fully trusted you. Maybe this present day I have lost sight of the real honest you or I'm gullible or I only see and hear what I want to see. Loneliness sucks, I had a very close friend and now he's gone and I miss that person and the night my life started. My senses have become dull and I'm tired of trying to make it seem that everything is okay.
I am aching in my heart, my first and true love has stooped to the lowest of the low. How does one tell that person that you are aware that they've done that to you when they won't hear a word of it? That's the part that sucks and hurts the most. All I want to do is protect this particular individual but there's nothing I can do to get that message to that person. I love her so much. I just wish I could go back 3 maybe 4 years ago and change who I was to make today's date a b... read more