Where do I begin. I have found myself in the most f***ed up situation I could ever in and I know some will judge but what can I do it's just the way this s*** has turned out and sadly I should walk away but my heart wont allow me to :(
To paint the picture my daughter started kindergarten which is now 3 years ago. She made a friend and I because quite close with the mother. To the point that we fell in love. I was am still to some degree happily married however I always ha... read more
I dislike it that a bad confession requires me to confess everything since my last good confession. I dislike it that I am questioning the foundations of the religion I just went back to and I am on the brink of returning to agnosticism once again because of pride. I understand everything--that this has to be done to fully participate in the sacraments and to complete my repentance. I am humbly asking for God's grace to enlighten me and remove this pride that is gnawing at my... read more
I'm afraid I'm growing apart from my partner.
Recently, and a few times in the past, I've found myself looking at other people more seriously than just an appreciative glance. I've started imagining what it would be like to be with someone who was around, someone who was comfortable with themselves and motivated in their career.
I've always been the go getter, the leader, the workaholic. My partner really isn't even close. He's very childish. He's never had a job. He has mu... read more
I haven't even felt real all week.
I don't feel like I'm myself at all. Like, I just took the backseat to someone else and watched from there.
It's the worst feeling especially when this other person is just f***ing your life up already, causing you to drown in stress.
I feel like ending my life would be the best answer to all of my problems, and it's really f***ed up because I really thought I was over all of that s***.
I feel the tears coming on and I just can't cry because... read more
I need to pee, but I can't be asked to get out from underneath the covers and go. I wonder if this is maybe down to the fact that I got a little spooked earlier on this morning. It was around 1am. Saw this piece of paper or something shuffle from underneath this little corner drawer that our TV's placed on. I'm suddenly tempted to pick it up and see what's on the other side, but at the same time I am very paranoid. This makeup bag of my sister's ended up magically falling fro... read more
I don't wanna feel this way. I didn't want to fall in love with him. I didn't want to let that feeling grow until it became unmanageable. And I certainly didn't want to get my hopes shattered and my heart broken like this. I don't want this pain. I don't want to have to see him again (but I know I will have to-that's what happens when you fall for someone who attends the same club as you do once or twice every week). I don't want to pretend that I'm fine when all I feel is th... read more
For once in my life I was okay with being alone. I not only accepted it, I embraced it. Then you came along. I was skeptical, and kept my hope in the situation to minimum, but I ever so slightly began to want us to work out.. I let myself believe it could be possible.
I don't know what changed.. I have theories.. but it doesn't matter regardless. I've delt with these symptoms before. I know where this is headed. It's fine. These things happen.
But I'm angry with you. You, jus... read more
How did you think I'd feel when telling me all those beautiful things about how you never loved anybody else that much and how you're in love with her soul and all that junk? Jesus Christ I hate melodramatic people. Y'all can all round up your favorite 18th century poets and have a wallowing party, and I'll just y'know. Live my life.
I reluctantly broke up with my girlfriend today. She didn't even bat an eye; though I know that's likely because she's not one to show emotion. And while I was incredibly upset about it, all she and my supposed best friend could do was joke and act like nothing had ever happened between us. It hurts so much to know my best friend who's supposed to be there for me through thick and thin doesn't even offer a supportive smile. It's like she wanted me to end my relationship. She ... read more
I have had so many friends who treated me like s***. Neglected me, abused me. I vented my frustrations to one, and she went out of her way to publicly humiliate me with it. Most of the rest don't seem to care about my mental or emotional well being, and they hardly talk to me. I'm definitely one of those people who needs someone to actually give a damn about me. If I could have one thing in the world, I'd like to have a few friends that love and support me and actually care a... read more
My bosses have a mail slot for each of them, and hardly anyone ever calls for boss 2, so every time i put a message slip into boss 1's mail slot, boss 2 walks in and goes, "Oh is this for me?" Uhm, no because it's in boss 1's f*cking slot? Then he reads it's not for him and puts it in a different slot! Wtf?! That's not where it goes!!! So I have to change it every single time because he does that EVERY SINGLE TIME! -________-
My cousin is so pathetic, and the whole family is disappointed in her.
She's 21, had a great "career" path she was headed towards, & held onto her 4 and a half yr. relationship.
Well, the relationship part isn't so important because the guy turned out to be disrespectful to her & he was a lazy, fat slob.
She quit her job because a girl was giving her a really hard time over there.
Well, my cousin now works in the mall, quit school, dropped her classes, and now is making frien... read more
And just as I was thinking I had never been this much in love before, so was he thinking the exact same thing, but for another person. I'm so dumb. I thought he liked me. Someone please kill me. I'm serious, it hurts so much inside right now, I want to die. But I can't cry or show any emotion at all because I live with people who are friends with that guy - and having to explain would just make everything SO awkward.