I honestly have no clue what to do with myself.
I graduated with a BA degree this past June.
So many dreams , but so much debt.
I have no idea where I want to be or what I want to do.
I feel like a slave to the student loans.
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I honestly have no clue what to do with myself.
Im so pissed and feel betrayed by my ex-friend group but if they ever felt like letting me back into their life id honestly probably scramble for the bone and i hate that about me. maybe i wont have to once i get friends that dont have a repretoire of turning all their friends against one person, even if that person was a part of their tightnit friendgroup to begin with
I know that i have to find something to make a living and the people keep telling me to find something i like doing. what i don't share with them is that i don't enjoy living so finding what i love doing is almost impossible. i feel like a fraud. i'm unworthy of their support. if they only knew that i am a gian waste of space. ..
Lord why oh why am i so cute, little and shy,.. and why do these guys just love to make u cry.. i just want 'some fun' real quick b4 i move.. but i don't wanna have 'some fun', with a dick angry dude... i try to watch cartoons and old people to not think about sex.. then somebody who i'll never meet will send me a text... flirtin and getting sweet, when they know i'm alone... they wanna drive me to the nuthouse in the twilight zone... i try to get lifted or pray to ignore the... read more
I am not really that smart. I just have a hard time believing that people insist on being so stupid.
I feel alone most of the time because when I try and talk to people I find myself speaking so far above there heads I get frustrated. So I don't talk much and really don't have many friends. I wish I had friends like me that I could talk to. Even at family gatherings I set there most of the time and just say nothing. I wish there was a place to move to that has more people lik... read more
Sometimes I think I hate my mother in law. She is a woman who would do anything for anyone, and that is part of the problem. We own a duplex, and she is a tenant (Mistake, we were trying to help). She destroyed the house, used her powers of manipulation to get us to drop her rent, and continues to cause new and exhausting ways to push my buttons. My husband sees it now, after many years, but she makes him so angry with her manipulation and antics he either spins into a stress... read more
How do I even write about you? How do I even start typing how I felt when I was with you and how I feel now that you've been out of my life for 5 years. I feel like you've probably forgotten me. I hate myself for how I pushed you away and how I abused your kindness and ruined our relationship. You were the nicest girl I had known then, you were genuinely caring and were so beautiful. You were innocent and pure and I came in like a some dark wave of corruption and shattered yo... read more
How can people cheat so calmly?
Does it not do something to your insides?
Does it not mess with your head?
Do you not feel guilty kissing your loved one after kissing someone else?
How can you wrap your arms around them after embracing another?
How can you still look lovingly at them after looking that same way at me?
I let you into my temple, just to be tainted.
You leave me just to go back to them.
If you don't have guilt, don't worry.
I have enough for both of us.
I HAVE BEEN HAVING FEELINGS FOR THE SAME GUY FOR THE PAST FOUR YEARS IM IN 10TH GRADE AND IT SUCKS BECAUSE I THOUGHT IVE GOTTEN OVER HIM AT THE START OF 9TH GRADE AND I STARTED TO BE LESS ATTRACTED TO HIM BUT THEN IT CAME BACK NOW AND WHATS WORST IS THAT HES MY BEST FRIEND AND ITS ALL MY FAULT WHY WE ARE NOT TALKING ANYMORE BC I LET MY FEELINGS GET PAST US AND NOW ITS AWKWARD AND s*** AND BEFORE HE USED TO MESSAGE ME ON FACEBOOK EVERY DAMN NIGHT WHEN HE AND HIS GIRLFRIEND HAS... read more
I am a privileged child and i am so well off. My brain hates me and I will never be good enough. I am not right and I do not deserve to be at the place where I am. People believed in the fake image I project. But it doesn't take much and then the truth leaks out for all to see. I will never reach adulthood in my life. I can never be the way I want to be. My heart and brain are my worst enemies as they keep stabbing me and hurting me and they never stop. I think I am so import... read more
Martha - the name that is the biggest f***ing nuisance of my life. Some b**** retard who just haaaaad to die and make life a f***ing hassle for everyone else. I mean seriously, ano special ka tangina mo? Putang ina your whole life you've been nothing but a f***ing nuisance to everyone else and now even in death mas buisit ka pa????? tangina ka naman f*** YOU! I hope worms are feasting on your retarded a** body, piece of s***. what the hell have i ever f***ing done to you, bit... read more
Mom thinks I'm okay because I smile around her, but in reality, she doesn't know how badly her and my dad's divorce has affected me. I cry every night and I relapsed and started cutting again. I don't want to tell her I cut again because she'll be upset with me and I don't need another thing to add to my plate