It's a slow burn. The feeling of extreme highs, followed by extreme lows. The feeling of catch twenty-two. This being that the only time you can feel the most alive is quickly followed by feeling as close to dead as one can. It's a slow burn, a slow suicide. Those thoughts always seem to stay with me, nowadays. I see the world unladen. A world without the burdon of my existence. It causes a smile to crack in my ... read more
f*** U CUTTERS! Attention craving stupid f***s. If you wanna die shoot yourself get it over with. Dont beat around the bush. low life bastards. I hate you. Some say they like the pain b**** please your already feeling pain thats why your doing it. I HATE U ALL!
In deployed to the Middle East and I have a wonderful wife and amazing daughter back at home waiting for me. I am sincerely happily married, yet every night I go to sleep I wake up tossing and turning about this different woman (an old girlfriend/but current friend) and how she's about to get married to another man. I'm jealous, in love and wish I would have never left her. I know the feelings are still there ... read more
Sometimes I feel like just picking up and leaving. Just getting on a train or whatever and see where it takes me and if I feel like it, I'll come back. I wish I could turn my back on everything for one moment and do something that I actually want to do in MY LIFE.
I hate my mind. Ever since my fiancÃ© cheated on me, (over 4 years ago before we were even engaged) I can't help getting jealous and scared that he's gonna leave me. It's not all the time... but when it happens, when the thought creeps into my mind... It stays for a long time and I get so moody. And it's unfair to him. He won my trust back long ago, but my mind is a mess and I think it's permanent.
I wonder what goes through my mother's head sometimes. I've been in my room for two weeks with occasional trips outside. I used to be happy when she came home from work because I had someone to talk to but now (this past week) I don't even care. I feel myself getting depressed but what am I supposed to do? I'm 18, she won't let me go out with anyone unless she knows them, which I could understand but now she's n ... read more
I hate high school rumors! My friend told me she heard I had sex at a party. I have a feeling the reason why people think that is because I had a man whore of a boyfriend and friends that have been around. I know I shouldn\'t be upset because its just a rumor and I\'m still in fact a virgin but I feel like everyone believes I\'m a slut now. Why do people have the need to make stuff up?! It\'s ridiculous.
I think I'm starting to hate my wife. I hate her friends I hate the way she acts on social media I hate how she cares to much about what people think I hate that I can't trust her and the way she takes care of the kids. The only thing I like about her is the sex and I'm starting not to like that either because I'm starting to hate her. I'm guess I'm just tired of her I don't know but everything she does irritate ... read more